Still around!
Hey guys,
I realize it's been a while since I've talked to many of you. I have been procrastinating writing this one and there are a few items I want you to know! Firstly, I'm still a student even though I've tried to quit about a million times...Also I have a job in Kamloops this summer, and I'm so excited to not have to move for once in my life. It's at the Ministry of Agriculture and Land. 3 days a week I will be working in the field - aka digging holes on people's farms...but that should be nice in the hot summer and all. Also, Jordan and I would like you to know that we are no longer together. As you are our fellow Kaleo-ers, you should know! If you think of me randomly ever, please pray for me - I am having a hard time spiritually, and have been for quite some time. I am dealing with doubts (who isn't...) and I keep wanting to abandon my faith. I pretty much don't spend time with God and I know that needs to change, but I can't do it. I have tried so many times, but I keep failing, and I don't know how to change that...Thanks guys. I just want to end with how much I appreciate you - even though we were only all in the same place for 8 months, you are the ones who I have allowed to know me the most...if that makes sense. Hope this post doesn't sound too negative or anything, because by no means do I feel down all the time!
I realize it's been a while since I've talked to many of you. I have been procrastinating writing this one and there are a few items I want you to know! Firstly, I'm still a student even though I've tried to quit about a million times...Also I have a job in Kamloops this summer, and I'm so excited to not have to move for once in my life. It's at the Ministry of Agriculture and Land. 3 days a week I will be working in the field - aka digging holes on people's farms...but that should be nice in the hot summer and all. Also, Jordan and I would like you to know that we are no longer together. As you are our fellow Kaleo-ers, you should know! If you think of me randomly ever, please pray for me - I am having a hard time spiritually, and have been for quite some time. I am dealing with doubts (who isn't...) and I keep wanting to abandon my faith. I pretty much don't spend time with God and I know that needs to change, but I can't do it. I have tried so many times, but I keep failing, and I don't know how to change that...Thanks guys. I just want to end with how much I appreciate you - even though we were only all in the same place for 8 months, you are the ones who I have allowed to know me the most...if that makes sense. Hope this post doesn't sound too negative or anything, because by no means do I feel down all the time!
posted by Anonymous at Sunday, March 11, 2007
4 Comments:
I love you deary!!! Thanks for being willing to share, and ya, I get the hard spiritual times and doubt, I'm the queen of negative posts!!:)I'm there often too... I love you! Praying deary, and thanks for taking the leap to tell us
Hey Kailyn! Thanks for letting us inside your head once again! I'm sorry to hear about you and Jordon - I'm sure that was not easy for either of you. I was thinking recently about the rather archaic word "godliness" which we don't use much anymore. The idea is a consciousness of God that molds and shapes our attitudes, values, principles and actions in daily life. Paul told Timothy to train himself to be godly, which I think simply means nurturing an awareness of God and allowing his Spirit to shape us. God isn't any less in Kamloops than he ever was; maybe you just are not as aware of him. Let me know what you think...
Thanks Amber and Jim (and Kristi for your e-mail). I would agree with what you said, Jim. I don't know what I wholly think about it yet, but I am thinking about it!
Kailyn! I wish I was there right now to hug you. I know what its like to wrestle with what you believe in. I am praying for you and Im sorry to hear about you and Jordan. love you girly
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