Sometimes I Just Can't See It.
I've had enough of this world.
Now don't get scared, I'm not hinting at suicide or anything like it, I'm just simply sick of the pain. Not even my own pain. It's just, so many people are depressed, abused, suicidal, angry, alone. . .the list goes on, and that's just covering my close friends.
And what do I do with it all? I know I can't fix anything, but I long to be able to provide some sort of relief. Some sort of comfort. Where is this hope that's supposed to exist? How do I find it, and how do I help my hurting friends feel it? Where is Jesus in all of this? How do I cast these burdens on Him instead of carrying them for myself? I want to save the world but I know that's not my job.
I know the hope exists. I've caught glimpses of it, heard of its healing powers, but sometimes. . .sometimes I just can't see it.
Now don't get scared, I'm not hinting at suicide or anything like it, I'm just simply sick of the pain. Not even my own pain. It's just, so many people are depressed, abused, suicidal, angry, alone. . .the list goes on, and that's just covering my close friends.
And what do I do with it all? I know I can't fix anything, but I long to be able to provide some sort of relief. Some sort of comfort. Where is this hope that's supposed to exist? How do I find it, and how do I help my hurting friends feel it? Where is Jesus in all of this? How do I cast these burdens on Him instead of carrying them for myself? I want to save the world but I know that's not my job.
I know the hope exists. I've caught glimpses of it, heard of its healing powers, but sometimes. . .sometimes I just can't see it.
posted by julie anna at Thursday, November 24, 2005
7 Comments:
Julie...................HEHEH Oh I've been wanting to pull this out of the "Old Kaleo Sayings" Closet, adn now seems like a good time.Ready for it
YOUR GOING TO HEAVEN!
heheh and now to eloberatite on it
All your friends who also love Jesus are going to Heaven too! whoot whoot!
Ok, this was said in Melissa style, so all theological holes and why this not applicable ect. needn't be pointed out. It's just a way of pointing our some hope!
Ohhh and if that doesn't work you can try this one!
"AND RAPTURE" you have to make the motion with your hands, as if your on a movie set, you know the motion? Maby this will work for you....funy thing it has never worked for me, but that's obvious cuz were all still here, I wonder if there'll be Blogs after the rapture............hahahah
Oh gosh, this is a long post, the problem is I talk so fast that what I say in 10 secconds takes up as much typing space as anyone else who talks for 10 secconds
Ok I'll let you go now, Yarrr....I just totaly broke the unwritten Blogger Code, you know the one? The one tht says that a comment should never be longer than the origional post!
hahah ! Sorry about that friend!
Ouch! My thumbs are blistered from Mario! Ahh I love life!
Oh right!
Bye Friend!
ops, that's --.......Takes up TWICE as much typing space as ...........
i understand where you are coming from. all i want to do is provide some relief and help them, but its not in our power.
where is Jesus in all of this? thats what i am struggling with, why do people have to suffer and we just sit here and watch it all happen and can't do nothing about it.
thanks where i am, lost and confused in this crazy world and not knowing what to do about it.
Well, I would say I second what you guys say, but I'm the third. Maybe I tripled it?
I don't like feeling like I can't help, or don't know how to help. Even though I know there is nothing in my power to help in the first place.
Kind of feels like I'm in a circle... that keeps going around...
Maybe I should quit school - it would solve my problems and then I could spend all of my time trying to solve others! Or become a nun. Whatever happend to those ideas ladies??? Julia? Amber? We can travel the country together as nuns. I like it. Kind of like Sister Act, but not quite.
Sorry, I am beginning to ramble. I will reply again if I actually have anything meaningful to say. The whole point of this reply was to second (tripled) the feeling.
Okay, I understand the feeling - quite an old friend of it, actually. But the other night David Lee had us watch a movie called "Luther" (as in Martin, not the archenemy of superpowers), and it gave us such a feeling of heroic faith and wanting to do something about it. And I thought of Jesus words the night before the cross, "Very truly I tell you, all who have faith in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it."
So what would happen if we began to ask: not in ordinary ways but in extraordinary ways? Like Nehemiah, weep and fast. Would we discover that we are not as helpless as we feel? Would Jesus inside us do greater things than Jesus in his own human body?
Julie, I'm proud of you for hanging in there in a community that aches with pain and sickness every day. I know you often feel along with these people, and sometimes you just feel numb and helpless like they do. "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." Julie, don't become weary (which is more than tired but tired of), and don't give up. God promises a harvest, which only he can produce. Just stay faithful until then.
Hey, who's praying for this girl? Let her know!
i am praying for you.
That took a lot of courage to admit this. I am praying for you Julie!
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